A shiver in cold water; nerves tingle.
Fish swim by and slimy scales tickle.
A small rock pierces and pinches until
water’s edge impacts a reaction.
Grass and dirt fly into the air and
water splashes everywhere.
Soon I leap to shore, to find wet clothes are
torn and worn to shreds from branches near the waters edge.
Flat rock, baked hot in sun, warms to scalding touch.
wet socks on sun baked rocks, steam into the air.
Still water’s light, gleams beneath the steam.
A smell of trees and fresh rain reminds that
I have to keep moving.
A shiver in cold water; nerves tingle.
IT is very hard to explain logically, but there is no such thing as coincidence.
Wisdom, is understanding what’s important, and coincidence is the lack of
understanding pattern or harmony. Synchronized, is the only way of things.
The myriad of things that exists as physical reality in IT’s complexity,
is nothing but illusory conceptualized perception.
How reality becomes is by intention, and will is the guiding force of intention.
There is no greater force than spirit, and spirit is energy refined.
The body must consume,
transform, and redirect energy in order to be
of service to The Way of spirit.
There is so much to see and even more seemingly, to do.
But when it comes down to it, all that happens simply is.
Madness is genius, and imperfection is beauty. All is in contradiction.
IT could be no other way.
The spirit is stronger than the body.
Good health; Strong body; Clear mind.
IT’s not about striving for balance, IT’s about finding the seeds of order even in the midst of profound chaos.
Awareness leads to Intellectual deconstruction of emotional patterns.
To see through an emotional complex, is to rob it of its power.
The first step is to identify the complex in which you have been caught.
Logical deconstruction followed by meditation, clears the mind.
Imagine the conditioned self that is you, which is familiar to logic and reason.
Imagine that you are skimming atop endless waves of emotion.
Riding them as if you are in control of the wind and the water.
You believe you’re in control, but you know the control is an illusion.
You believe you understand the depths beneath you. but that too is an illusion.
“I tested the water’s kiss. It did ripple the pond a bit.
If you can handle the prospect of death that is…. and it’s a massive as heck shock.
Love will have you nervous, doin’ stupid shit on purpose. When you have it, there’s nothing like it.
It ain’t the rainbow with a treasure chest and a map. But still you hunt for it.”
There are only two possible outcomes from an emotional complex dealing with love.
Either it will end in disaster, or the emotional complex will be worked out and a balance that brings
stability and trust between individuals is attained. Gonna keep walking forward.
Never turning back. Each day is past as future is presently becoming. Time is a paradox.
A(past) and B(present) go to C(future) and C then goes back to A. Awareness of C effects A and B.
If there is awareness or intuition of something, all of time is effected. IF necessary,
and something is noticed quick enough, time can be used to the advantage of the awareness.
Time is in relation to perception and the perception of others is affected by each other in many ways.
People link in to each other’s perception, without even noticing it most of the time, in a really minute way.
There is a link that is made, that enables communication on a level that is similar enough in understanding, so that the awareness can grasp it consciously.
IF time were defined as A(past), B(present), and C(future);
IF someone or something from C(future) was somehow able to go back to A(past), this would create a number of
paradoxes. IF this were to happen, Anything effected by the undetermined variables of C(future)
existing in A(past) would then effect the C(future) of that A(past) which would be an entirely different
“time stream”, just because something happened to effect A when C interacted with A.
This would mean that such a thing has already happened, and theoretically there would be no noticing of it
happening by anyone.
In other words, if someone or something
traveled to the future or the past,
it would invariably
effect time and an entirely different
sequence of events occurring, or time stream, would be created
just because time was cheated, in this sense.
Like all of a sudden everything was different and everyone
just went along with it as if it happened like that normally.
In that sense there would be no disturbance in time, no lapse.
IF the future were to effect the past(or vice versa),
there would be no indication of it happening except if a person travelling from the future to the past was
able to be outside the perceived stream of time-space in order to observe without being caught in the paradox.
Time must be perceived in a certain way otherwise there are all sorts of paradoxes.
The only thing that is born and that dies, is the perception of time.
Perception of time is reality defined, consciously.
IF perception is the key to time, then all that needs be shifted is the level of awareness.
I volunteer tangents.
You sit in class.
The matrix has you;
dragging a bag of lonely remnants.
Infectious and dangerous.
Walking uphill, trying to get down.
Numb enough to deny the sin pins and evil needles that’ve punctured.
Getting sick is not enough for you to see that you are unwell.
I Burn vertical.
Absorbing attention is a must.
The angels who never hit bad notes are like spirals flowing.
Always moving, but never in a straight line.
Dense and heavy spreads, like either you drink it all up, or sink in it.
Fill the empty space and then breakthrough.
In order to become lighter and stay above the trap that is this dense reality,
let go of things to hold on to.
Eat simple and healthy, so that digestion is easy but nutritious.
Live free and without desire.
Forget loss or gain, being picky and choosy is
choosing ‘this’ over ‘that’, when both are transient.
Realize your life is only bait for bigger fish.
Encased inside the gauntlet’s hunger quotas;
break free by running the gauntlet, aware.
Face the test, forge the spirit.
All this killing time, are you strong enough to stand,
perfecting body, heart, and mind?
Ultimate reality is not like anything we can imagine; yet that does not mean there is no ultimate reality. If we only follow thoughts coming and going, that is getting involved in yes and no, frittering away time and energy, going back and forth. In order to witness absolute reality, it is necessary to detach from our conceptual description of reality: that non-attached relationship is neither clinging nor denying, not getting involved in yes and no.
Reviling others is reviling yourself.
Anger at others is anger at yourself.
A dog’s buddha nature presents the true directive in full:
As soon as you get into yes and no,
you lose your body and forfeit your life.
A few days ago after breakfast, I laid down to meditate. Almost right away I found myself in the forest behind my house. Only, there was no snow like there should have been and everything was very green. It was warm outside and very nice, so I walked around for awhile until I was approached by some woman. She had a sort of golden brown skin and when I looked closer, it looked like there were actually little specks of gold embedded in her skin. She seemed to be glowing too but not very bright, like her skin was radiant.
She came up to me and began communicating with me in some non-verbal manner. Like she was thinking and I could just get a direct transmission from her. Sometimes I would get actual words. I asked her who she was and she said she was a goddess. I asked her where she came from, and she asked me if I had ever seen her temple before. I was confused by this, because she asked it like she was surprised I had not seen it before, and how I didn’t recognize her.
She took my hand right then as she understood that I didn’t know what she was talking about. She explained how her temple was “white but not bright white”, I remember those words exactly. At that very moment, a flash of an image popped in my mind’s eye. I saw a very large and beautiful temple that was crystal clear, like it was made entirely from quartz crystal.
It was then that she took me to a large river. We were just there instantly, and not in the forest behind my house anymore. She turned to the water, and out of her chest where her heart would be, a bunch of little things started flying out of her. I thought they looked like bees at first, but when I looked closer I couldn’t tell what they were. They looked more like energy and not like they had a distinguishable form. These small things flew into the water and a whirlpool began to happen. Out of the center of the whirlpool, a sphere of spinning water ascended into the air.
Then the ghostly images of what looked like people sort of, appeared in the air, as if they were being projected out of this sphere. The images included men and women and they looked to all be celebrating or having a really good time otherwise. They were not quite people I noticed. Some had different color skin and were shape-shifting into other things. One man looked down on us as if just noticing that he was being watched. He had human features and same color skin as a Caucasian. He began to argue with the goddess I was with. He was clearly in some sort of leader position. He was saying that we were not allowed to come where he was. We were not allowed because she was trying to bring me there with her. So, pretty much, I was not allowed and that was why he was denying us. He kept saying that you cant bring one of my kind there, it’s strictly forbidden.
Without too much more of an argument, she conceded and she grabbed my hand again. Next thing I know, I am somewhere else once more. This time I am standing near a house with what looked like clay walls. We were outside of it, in the middle of a forest I have never seen before.
I realized that she was trying to hand me something. It looked like a sort of plain doughnut without a hole punched in it. It even felt like a pastry but was more firm. she told me how I can repel negative spirits away from me and showed me once again in a direct transmission how to do this. It is hard to explain. One more time, she sent out those small things from her chest where her heart would be and they flew into the clay wall of this house. Then all sorts of disturbing and threatening forms that looked to be coming right for me, started coming out of the wall.
I realized she was giving me a chance to try what she had shown me and that these things could not hurt me if I did it. I held out the object she gave me and its like I just knew how to make this loud, humming sounding vibration come out of the very center of my being. I was not actually humming with my mouth. It was like I was sending out a massive vibration. I had to close my eyes when I did it, to focus enough and it sounded like it was so loud that it almost made my ears ring. When it would get the loudest, I could see behind my closed eyes a sort of blue sphere of light that would turn yellow like the sun. When it was yellow, was when the action was finished. Like I said, this is very hard to explain.
I began to do this with the object over and over, making this humming sounding vibration. I was fascinated with how it felt to do this. After awhile of doing it, some people came out of the house complaining saying I was being too loud and that I had to stop. They didn’t look menacing but they were really annoyed. I noticed the goddess was nowhere to be found right then. I tried to show one of the people what I was doing, but no matter how hard I tried I could not do it again now that she was gone. Instead the object she gave me crumbled in my hand.
I closed my eyes in a sigh. When I opened them I was shocked to find myself back in the forest behind my house again. I saw people getting up like they were passed out in the grass and just waking up. I went over to them and when I did, this creature that was very beautiful came up to us. She looked like she had human-like features and body, but she had a sort of purple complexion. I asked her what she was and who she was. Again, like with the goddess she spoke only to me in what was a non-verbal sort of communication, a direct transmission. She was a fairy. I know that might sound crazy. I have never had a dream before or meditated and seen goddesses or fairies. I was shocked in this meditation while she was explaining to me what she was. But I could feel in me that she was in fact a fairy, just as much as I felt that the goddess I had seen before was exactly that. She led a few of us to a tree and I was wondering what she was going to do.
She just grabbed some bark with two hands pulling to the right. For some reason I couldn’t imagine why she would be doing that, at that moment. Until the bark opened up just like a door would. My jaw dropped and I saw very steep stairs and two white ropes hanging on each side of the staircase. I knew right then that this was her home. I climbed the stairs by grabbing the rope on the right to help me up. I noticed how I was shrinking as I was going up the stairs. Reminded me of Alice in wonderland. I was very lucid during this whole experience. When we got up the stairs it was a small home with a kitchen, a table and two other rooms. Another, male fairy popped up out of thin air and started heckling the first, female fairy that led us there. He was messing around with her in a joking sort of manner. She told him not to go invisible and startle her like that.
She didn’t seem to appreciate his behavior and as they were bickering, she started to shape-shift many times, into all sorts of different forms. Some of these forms looked animated almost, or like a cartoon character would. Except it was clearly still her and she was just making herself look different. I noticed she was changing form almost as if it was part of her expression and how she was feeling while she was talking to him. She was very funny and kept making quips at him. She was more clever than he was and had a brilliant way of making him realize how he was acting. I wish I could describe some of the forms she was changing into. Some of them were so bizarre and yet pleasant to see.. Most would be nearly impossible to explain.
One, which I like allot, was like a cloud inside a transparent body. She went to this one a few times. The cloud had eyes and a face but it was inside of the transparent body. If you could give a cloud a face and have it look real, it was like that. She even showed me how she looked if she were human. She was gorgeous as a human, with light brown hair and bright green eyes. After that, she returned to a humanoid with purplish color skin again.
I remember she had books on her table. One was hand drawings that she said she had done. Most of them were faces, portraits maybe of actual beings? One of these drawings stood out to me. It was the goddess I had been with before. I told her about this and about the goddess. She just smiled as if she knew who I was talking about. She wouldn’t tell me anything about the goddess tho, like it was secret. I told her about the whirlpool and the sphere of water that projected those beings in a ghostly image. And how she was trying to take me to where they, were but I was not allowed. She said that they were water fairies. She said they can be stubborn and do not like outsiders.
Another book had all these symbols and I could hardly read any of it. I remember some symbols I could understand. One was protection, another was invisibility, and another was gateway. There were a couple others I could read, but cannot recall now for some reason. I have no idea how I knew what these symbols meant. I asked her what they were. She looked at me and was surprised saying that I should not be able to read them at all(know what they mean). She said that was her book for studying glyphs. She was not very good at glyphs and she was trying to learn more. I asked her about the invisibility one. I asked if she could make me invisible or if there was one that could let me stay there with her longer. I knew I could wake up any minute and I didn’t want to leave.
She explained that the invisibility one would only last an hour to an hour and a half, unless I meditated more. She said if I meditated more it would have a more lasting effect, up to 6 months even. She said that right now as I was in her tree, that I was invisible to the physical world and laughed at me. I knew she was being sarcastic, and exactly what she meant. I quickly discarded the idea of invisibility. She said that when I was ready to wake up, I had to wake up. That she couldn’t keep me there. She can take me places and show me things, but my time there was decided by something greater than her. She wouldn’t explain what she meant by that no matter how I asked.
I asked her about the other glyph I saw, that was “gateway”. She said that one is to come into and out of the physical realm. It is to make a gateway for that. She said that you need an anchor and that is why she is living in that tree. The tree is her anchor. She was asking one of us to help her with laundry and she was looking in her fridge and complaining to the male fairy how there was pork in there and all sorts of unhealthy stuff. He remarked that the brief times he is able to eat food, he wants to enjoy himself. She said that he is harming himself by eating like that. He didn’t seem to care. She was very upset that there was so much pork. I remember her saying, “pork, pork, pork, so much pork!!!” I didn’t understand until after I woke up later on, why she would need food or clothes. She needs them for if she is coming to the physical world. She had even explained to me that her tree was the anchor for her to come into the physical world.
She said that normally she would never discuss glyphs with someone like me, but since I was able to read some of them she felt it was alright to explain at least the ones I could read. The male fairy kept interrupting her and me even when we would speak. He didn’t like how she was telling me so much. It was hard to talk to her at that point because of him. Right then the phone rang and I was pulled awake.
When we exhale this breath, we do not know if we will breathe in again.
The wise do not lose time, the brave do not think twice! IF you get to know The Way today,
you should set to work this very day; when you know, that is when to start.
If you say you do not have the leisure today, and will wait for another day,
I’m afraid that when you want to do it you wont be able to anymore.
Human beings have three treasures, vitality, energy, and spirit. When the mind and
breathing rest on each other, then the spirit stabilizes. Energy is not to be drained casually,
forget words and keep centered and energy is not drained. Vitality is not to be lost through leakage;
recirculate vitality to replenish the brain, and vitality does not leak.
By moderating food and drink you can replenish your stomach. By being careful of your
speech you can replenish your lungs. By stopping worry, you can replenish your heart.
By getting rid of anger you can replenish your liver.
By stopping promiscuous lust, you can replenish your kidneys and generative organs.
When sensory data is not objectivized, the sense organs have no partners to rely on.
Don’t worry about not replenishing; beware of replenishing and then wasting again.
After a hundred days of replenishment you do not see excess,
but after one day of waste you sense insufficiency.
There is an ancient Chinese story:
There was a stone cutter who was dissatisfied with himself and his life. One day he passed a wealthy merchants house, and through the open gateway, saw many fine possession and important visitors.
“how powerful that merchant must be!” Thought the stone cutter. He became very envious, and wished that he could be like the merchant. Then he would no longer have to live the life of a mere stone cutter.
To his great surprise he suddenly became the merchant, enjoying more luxuries and power than he ever dreamed of, envied and detested by those less wealthy than himself. But soon a high official passed by carried in a sedan chair, accompanied by attendants, and escorted by soldiers beating gongs. Everyone, no matter how wealthy, had to bow low before the procession. “How powerful that official is!” he thought. “I wish that I could be that high official.”
Then he became the high official, carried every where, in his embroidered sedan chair, feared and hated by the people all around, who had to bow down before him as he passed. It was a hot summer day, and the official felt very uncomfortable in the sticky sedan chair. He looked up at the sun. It shone proudly in the sky, unaffected by his presence. “How powerful the sun is!” he thought. “I wish that I could be the sun.” Then he became the sun, shining fiercly down on everyone, scorching the fields, cursed by the farmers and laborers.
But a huge black cloud moved between him and the earth, so that his light could not shine on everything below. “How powerful that storm cloud is!” he thought. “I wish that I could be a cloud!”
Then he became the cloud, flooding the fields and villages, shouted at by everyone. But soon he found that he was being pushed away by some great force, and realized that it was the wind. “How powerful it is!” he thought. “I wish that I could be the wind!”
Then he became the wind, blowing tiles off of houses, uprooting trees, hated and feared by all below him. But after awhile he ran up against something that would not move, no matter how forcefully he blew against it–a huge, towering stone. “How powerful that stone is!” he thought. “I wish that I could be a stone.”
Then he became the stone, more powerful than anything else on earth. But as he stood there, he heard the sound of a hammer pounding a chisel into the solid rock, and felt himself being changed. “What could be more powerful than I, the stone?” he thought. He looked down and saw far below him the figure of a stone cutter.
The clouds above us join and separate, The breeze in the courtyard leaves and returns.
Life is like that, so why not relax?
Who can stop us from celebrating?
“One day, the sage gave the disciple an empty sack and a basket of potatoes.
“Think of all the people who have done or said something against you in the recent past, especially those you cannot forgive. For each of them, inscribe the name on a potato and put it in the sack.”
The disciple came up quite a few names, and soon his sack was heavy with potatoes.
“Carry the sack with you wherever you go for a week,” said the sage. “We’ll talk after that.”
At first, the disciple thought nothing of it. Carrying the sack was not particularly difficult. But after a while, it became more of a burden. It sometimes got in the way, and it seemed to require more effort to carry as time went on, even though its weight remained the same.
After a few days, the sack began to smell. The carved potatoes gave off a ripe odor. Not only were they increasingly inconvenient to carry around, they were also becoming rather unpleasant.
Finally, the week was over. The sage summoned the disciple. “Any thoughts about all this?”
“Yes, Master,” the disciple replied. “When we are unable to forgive others, we carry negative feelings with us everywhere, much like these potatoes. That negativity becomes a burden to us and, after a while, it festers.”
“Yes, that is exactly what happens when one holds a grudge. So, how can we lighten the load?”
“We must strive to forgive.”
“Forgiving someone is the equivalent of removing the corresponding potato from the sack. How many of your transgressors are you able to forgive?”
“I’ve thought about it quite a bit, Master,” the disciple said. “It required much effort, but I have decided to forgive all of them.”
“Very well, we can remove all the potatoes. Were there any more people who transgressed against you this last week?”
The disciple thought for a while and admitted there were. Then he felt panic when he realized his empty sack was about to get filled up again.
“Master,” he asked, “if we continue like this, wouldn’t there always be potatoes in the sack week after week?”
“Yes, as long as people speak or act against you in some way, you will always have potatoes.”
“But Master, we can never control what others do. So what good is the Tao in this case?”
“We’re not at the realm of the Tao yet. Everything we have talked about so far is the conventional approach to forgiveness. It is the same thing that many philosophies and most religions preach – we must constantly strive to forgive, for it is an important virtue. This is not the Tao because there is no striving in the Tao.”
“Then what is the Tao, Master?”
“You can figure it out. If the potatoes are negative feelings, then what is the sack?”
“The sack is… that which allows me to hold on to the negativity. It is something within us that makes us dwell on feeling offended…. Ah, it is my inflated sense of self-importance.”
“And what will happen if you let go of it?”
“Then… the things that people do or say against me no longer seem like such a major issue.”
“In that case, you won’t have any names to inscribe on potatoes. That means no more weight to carry around, and no more bad smells. The Tao of forgiveness is the conscious decision to not just to remove some potatoes… but to relinquish the entire sack.”
This is a picture of the sunlight. This picture has not been edited in Photoshop or any other way.
This is a picture of the sunlight. This picture has not been edited in Photoshop or any other way. If you magnify the image, you can clearly see a strange pattern inside the light.
Knowledge is just a commercial. It advertises what we want. We chase what we know.
What’s left to chase when you forget knowledge?
Empty your cup. Become realized, and wisdom breaks through as understanding,
directly and spontaneously. Knowledge is imperfect,
as it is memory of information interpreted. How can knowledge perfectly
interpret information when memory is not perfect in its acuity, nor eidetic in terms of recollective capability?
Even if this were possible, knowledge itself lacks a certain creativity. There is no true expression of
intelligence gracefully, unless knowledge is completely let go. The uncarved block has the most potential
to become anything. This can be interpreted in more than one way.
We must deconstruct the entire process. Sex, consumption of food, physical activity,
emotional activity, speech, and mental activity.
See the space that is not defined.
A space of just being, before anything;
dispassionate and objectively realized. Aware on a sensitive level seemingly above consciousness.
Not moved from the center, all is noticed without surprise or alarm. No disturbance can reach the center
at this point. Not caught in any of the centers, able to move freely from sexual, physical, emotional,
mental, and to super-conscious Wu-wei. IT becomes naturally, taking form or becoming of use when needed in any way, in any of the energy centers.
Things are not either non-being, or being.
I keep to non-being, yet hold onto being.
We are like a person who is under the illusion of being imprisoned
and frantically attempts to pry open the door to escape.
Or like a bird flying into walls, trying to escape a room that it’s trapped in.
If the bird could only find the open window that has always been there..
With regard to heaven,
purity, impurity, movement,
and stillness, are projections through which the sun and moon appear.
With regard to Earth, they are projections through which the seasons appear.
With regard to mankind, they are projections through which the wise and average
appear. The sage is yang and through the casting off of their mortal shell, they
become an ascending immortal.
The average person is yin and dies, only to become a spirit or ghost.
When the spirit is intact, with no confusion and no dullness, you will
return to the state of mind you had when you were young, including the
energy and temperament before sexuality ever captured the attention.
Having command of both our internal negative and positive forces and cultivating the Tao, gives us the complete circuit of power to activate the huge potential of psychic Kundalini energy and force coiled at the base of the spine, to unite the conditioned temporal and the unconditioned Primordial Spirit, through microcosmic orbit energy circulation, microcosmic orbit meditation and Kundalini central channel chakra meditation, followed by the vivid and electric power of witnessing all phenomena without interference or judgement.
When we have this foundational practice the opportunity for the Kundalini Dragon to rise presents itself and when it does the six harmonies happen in which the body harmonizes with Qi, the vital energy; the vital energy harmonizes with the heart-mind; the heart-mind harmonizes with the mind of intention; the mind of intention harmonizes with the unconditioned universal intelligence; the unconditioned intelligence harmonizes with the absolute oneness and omnipresence of the cosmic void state, which is the very ground of existence, unifying the cosmic void, mind, energy and action into one whole unit and creating the most powerful unified state possible. In this state emptiness and action unite, freeing the consciousness from its conditioned prison house and allowing it to enter and exit the conditioned temporal and the unconditioned Primordial state at will.
The mysterious gate cannot be opened as a result of will and effort, or through the mind’s occult intention-power, but when it has the required foundation and relaxes totally, a state becomes available where the thinking, dreaming, concentrating, contemplating, meditating, mind goes into abeyance and the consciousness merges into the absolute oneness and omnipresence of the cosmic void.
In this state the ‘I’ consciousness does not move at all because it is merged with entirely with the body, its animating energy, heart-mind, intention-mind, unconditioned awakened mind and the supreme all-pervading transcendental intelligence, that is present as the manifestation and the source, in every form as one whole unity.
Energy is the mind’s power to act. Energy has no movement separate from its director, which is the mind. What the director thinks and feels, energy produces in the physical structure and in its environment, so our situation physically, mentally and emotionally and in our environment is created by the conditioned structure of the mind.
When a powerful internal or external energy is encountered, it is the mind’s conditioning that sees it as positive, or negative and it manifests the intensity, the effect that is felt and the action that is taken as a reaction to its programming.
Because the conditioned mind mechanically reacts to the energies it feels through its imposed programming, it does not realize that it can be the sole transformer and director of both internal and external negative and positive energies whether they come from disease, voluntary or involuntary emotions, psychological praise, attack, or suffering in self or others, without reacting to an imposed programming that is either beneficial or detrimental to the entire physical organism according to the situation encountered and how it is programmed to react to it.
When we realize that we can absorb both negative and positive energy, transform it into vital force in our self and direct it in whatever way we choose, then when we do not want to do something, that energy can become the unit of propulsion to do it, just by realizing and applying the mind’s dormant intention-power.
When we realize that we have this intention-power to transform and redirect energy and we apply it, then the stronger the resistance, the more energy there is available. It is then that we can change the entire physical organism, our life and circumstances and we can turn the deeply conditioned ‘no don’t’ cells into ‘yes do’ cells, with our own intention-power.
Every single thought, emotion, desire and primal urge has a tremendous potential of energy that can be cultivated, transformed into vitality and used for all our daily activities.